Wednesday, January 23, 2008

There's a plank in my eye, but I want to complain about the speck in yours...

Ok, so it has been a really long time since I last wrote... I've been kind of busy, but mostly frustrated and in a bad mood. Thank goodness I am getting out of that!

So, I have two thoughts for the day. The second I will explore tomorrow. Firstly, I have been thinking alot today about the assumptions we make about other people. I mean, we are so quick to get angry at someone for cutting in front of us in traffic, or bumping us on the sidewalk and not appologizing, or taking the elevator up one flight insead of taking the stairs. The reality of the situation is that we don't know what is going on in that person's life. Maybe they have joint problems and the weather is affecting them. Or maybe their day just sucks. And instead of providing what may be the only smile in response to their bad mood, we glare at them.

Now, I am very much at fault for this. I realize that, but I would like to actively attempt to change that. So, if you see me or hear me glaring and complaining without just cause... call me out. Ha, that's an odd request I know.

On a lighter note, I am SOOO out of shape and I realized that last night when I ran suicides with the girls I coach. I'm thinking the Rec center is the place I need to be.

~em

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Out of Focus

Do you ever have those periods in your life where you just can't focus on things? Usually it's when you have big decision to make or you are in a fight with a friend, boyfriend, girlfriend, family member, etc. I have been in one of those ruts for the past week or so and it is so frustrating!



I can't focus on anything. Nothing at all. I just don't have the focus. I have no clue what's wrong with me, but this needs to end soon. School is starting back and I am going to need to pay attention somehow. It's not because I am worrying about something else. Everything is going well in life right now. I don't know. We'll just see.

Monday, January 7, 2008

Shhh...listen.

Last night I had the option to go to church or skip and go hang out with some friends. I chose to go to church. Not always typical for me since it was Sunday night church. Well, Suzanne spoke last night about listening to God when He tells you to do something. The service was amazing. The cool thing was, I got to see exactly what she was talking about at work.

I'm not going to go into specific detail about the story right now, because I don't feel that it is time to tell a lot of people (not that a lot of people really read this). Pastor Cox had an altar call and I felt that I needed to go down when he called a specific group of people. I was the altar praying and someone came up behind me and asked if they could pray with me. She said that God had told her to come pray with me and she didn't know why. She told me that He had something great in store for me and a few other things.

After the service was over and all of us were just standing around and hanging out, trying to figure out what to go do. Another lady, whom I knew, came up to me with tears in her eyes. She had come from across the church. She said that God kept telling her to come talk to me, but she wasn't sure about coming up to me since the service was over and all. She continued to tell me pretty much the exact same thing the girl before me told me. It was pretty amazing. When I told her that I had heard the same exact thing earlier in the evening from someone else, she was reassured.

You know, it's times like that when I sit back and don't understand how people can say that there is no God, or that he doesn't speak to us. Last night's service was pretty awesome. I came away from it with more than just a lesson and so did 2 other people who listened to what God had to say to them. SO, if you are somewhere and God tells you to talk to someone today. Do it. Don't hesitate. They might just need it as much as I did. : )

~em

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Procrastination is not always a bad thing.

So, I'm supposed to be cleaning my house right now, but I decided to take the 8th break of the night to write a little. Today was a great day. It was pretty laid back. My Jr. High girls basketball team played their first game today. They were a little sloppy, but they played hard the whole time and I see a lot of potential. I love coaching.

Heather and I hung out pretty much all day today. This evening we watched the movie with Johnny Depp, "Finding Neverland". It was a really good movie. I love stuff like that. The whole fantasy stuff gets me everytime. "Lord of the Ring", "Narnia", "The Giver", and whatever else. I just love that stuff. I think it is because I like to use my imagination so much.

When I was a little girl, my granddad used to tell me all kinds of stories about "Little People" that lived in the house and only came out at night. He would talk about people who had super powers and far away lands. It sounds really silly now to an adult, these make believe lands that have nothing to do with everyday life. I'm curious why we lose that sense of wonder. As a child it is so easy to pick up a wooden spoon and a lid to a pot and pretend to be a valiant knight on the way to save the princess. As we age it becomes a hassel to even play along with the children who play like that. I hope I never lose that sense of wonder.

I know that was a very random spill, but I am pretty random. I also have a very messy house right now that is in the process of being organized. I just keep stopping. I think that this stop was a productive one. I got to add a picture to the blog and create somewhat of a profile. Ha! I am pretty much just procrastinating right now.

Last thing, school starts back Monday. This semester should be interesting. I am working 36 hours a week and taking 15 hours of classes. Most of my classes are evening classes. I hope that works out. We will see. I'm ready to get back into a routine. I'm not ready to be at the school at 8am every morning. : /

~em

Thursday, January 3, 2008

New Year, New Blog

Ok, So I'm new at this whole blog thing. I decided that I needed to channel all my random thoughts somewhere and what better place than here! Life is about to get crazy again. School starts back on the 7th and freedom thus ends. I just got back from one of the most amazing Christian conferences/retreats I have ever been on. I learned so much to carry into the new year. For now I just want to list some goals for this year:
  • learn conversational Spanish- more to come on this one
  • read the entire Bible
  • buy a guitar and begin learning how to play ( I must be realistic with this one)
  • go on at least one random trip
  • finish reading all the books I've been stacking to the side to read
  • run around less and stroll more

These aren't so much New Year's Resolutions as they are goals. I want to steer my priorities in a different direction this year. Today is short and sweet. More to come.

~em